Weirdness

I feel strange. It's only four days but it feels like forever since I've seen my husband. I feel almost lost. He'll be home tomorrow and I've been away from him before but it feels strange now. I don't know if it's because I don't have anyone around me or if it's because I'm jealous of where he is. It's only 24 more hours until he's home, can I survive???

Senselessness

What is it about life that bad things happen to some people and not others? Why is it that one child can make a wrong decision and have their life snuffed out and others make multiple bad decisions but live on? Three days ago, one of my students was killed while walking across a busy road. She was 12 years old, beautiful, intelligent, mature and had such great potential. She made the bad decision to play a game of dare and ended up losing her life. It sickens me that people like Lindsay Lohan, Paris Hilton, George Michael and many others make even worse decisions involving drugs, drinking and reckless driving and receive reduced sentences, slaps on the wrists or even no punishment at all - they are risking their lives every day and yet, nothing bad happens while this one child, who made one mistake, is now gone. I am absolutely heartbroken that this beautiful girl is dead. It will be with great sadness that I go face my students tomorrow and let them know about their classmate. Please keep me in your thoughts.